Casey Anthony

I haven't really had an opinion on this woman. She was acquitted of killing her child because of lack of evidence, not on the sole fact of whether or not she did it.

What pisses me off is that, there are many great, wonderful and fantastic women out there who work their asses off and do not ask for much in order to make their children/families happy. These women do not get handouts or are not made famous for what they do and are only honored by their families (a great honor, mind you), unlike Casey Anthony who is being offered 500K to pose in Hustler.

Unfuckingbelievable.

#theworldisafuckedupplace

2011 isn't blog worthy... wait, that's not true

Well, all you intense blog readers. I'm alive, just soul searching as opposed to keeping to myself a lot.

I've been going to counseling, its helping but its not a 100% fix and I am okay with that.

I am not so obsessed with getting over *him* but I do want closure and to not act all angry and upset every time we are around each other (if that ever happens again). I love my friends and they love me more but I have to be able to accept a couple of things, and just say good bye, farewell and ce le vie.

In other news, life is continuing on!

Letter to My Father

Sorry, I really don't want to talk to you today.

30 Day Song (in 6 days) Challenge: Day 1- 5

I felt like taking part in this. I know that no one is going to read this, however, I want to do something more with my life than trick friends into paying for my dinner. I know its supposed to be a 30 day challenge but screw that crap!


Day 1: My Favorite Song


Kiss Me by Sixpence None the Richer 

Day 2: Your Least Favorite Song

Teach Me How to Dougie 

Day 3:

(edit 4/12/2011: never finished that!)

here we go again.

Slowly and surely, I'm moving along. I hate that its taking this long for me to realize things about myself.

For instance...

I thought that there would be a time where I could be friends with him again. Where I would want to. I have come to the realization that idea is not a truth, there is no more room in my life for him anymore. Our time as friends plus some has long past and I am at peace with this truth. This is a funny thing because last year, all I ever wanted to do was talk to him, to understand why he was angry at me for something that I felt was not my fault. A year later, not talking to him is the best thing for me. I know it seems lame that I am still stuck in a small funk, but I was friends with this guy for over 2 years and I could not imagine myself getting over something in a matter of just a few weeks.

At the moment, at 3:26am, I just feel more comfortable to be myself and I am happier for it than I was a year ago.

I just wish that my heart was not as cold to men as it is.

(Don't look back, don't ever look back.)

Taylor Lautner

Taylor Lautner is the guy that plays the werewolf named Jacob in The Twilight Series and I just remembered that he is 18 years old. 

18 years old. 

That means that one year ago from today, I was lusting over a 17 year old. Something has to be illegal about that but, thankfully, its not. (hopefully) 

"...with all this pain in my chest, I still wish you the best with a f**k you...."

Cee Lo Green: "Fuck You" hits the spot.

I would post the youtube video but all that cutting and pasting hurts my head.

In other news, I'm reverting to my old ways. Sort of. I don't know. I'm all conflicted, I don't know if I want a boyfriend or other things. I have never really had a boyfriend for a substantial amount of time, only lovers for the past six years. I do not regret anything I have ever done with my life, its just that this constant marry-go-round of men in my life has left me with a sense of confusion and feeling of suspicion towards all men that have an attraction towards me. This suspicion leaves me to not expect much from men. :-)