Last Halloween, I didn't want to celebrate the festivities. Partly because of the depression that I was going though, the other part is because I just didn't want to.
This year, I would really like to take part in Halloween, however, I dont have any plans. :-(
I'm sad.
Oh well, if worse comes to worse- I will put on my prettiest dress and drink all by myself.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Salve Regina
I LOVE THIS VIDEO!
Since I have been accused of only paying attention to things that make me unhappy (you know who you are!) Here is something that makes me happy:
Since I have been accused of only paying attention to things that make me unhappy (you know who you are!) Here is something that makes me happy:
Friday, October 16, 2009
Beauty and the Beast
I'm listening to Belle from Beauty and the Beast (over Youtube.com) and I could help thinking about Gaston, the hunk who wanted to marry Belle and his plans to marry Belle. Belle is the main character of the story and the most beautiful woman in the village, however, she's rather odd because she likes to read a lot, that and she's the inventor's daughter. Gaston only wanted to marry Belle because she was the most beautiful female in town, thus making her the "best" and since he deserved the "best"- he desired her. Gaston and Belle had nothing in common, Belle also wanted nothing to do with him. Gaston, however, proceeded to ruin Belle's, the Beast's and other's lives for his quest of marrying a beautiful woman he hardly knew.
When I was younger, the story line was too complex for me to understand it's underlying tones. All I saw was a girl who had man falling over her because she was the most beautiful despite the fact that she was the odd one. (yeah, even at a young age I had issues with the way I look)
Now that I am older, I see the story as glorifying gender and sex roles for those who are young. I'm beginning to realize why I am so cynical at the concept of love, for the simple fact that it gets thrown around a lot- in movies, television, books, school, jobs, etc.
The way I see it, if I'm going to fall in love- even if it's just once or a billion times- why I can't I do it carefully and with consideration. I don't want to fall in love with a fool because he perceives to have the qualities that I think I am looking for. I want to fall in love because this person definitely has the qualities that I am looking for and even if we don't get married, I want to know that in that moment of time my heart and mind worked in conjunction of each other. I have a habit of giving love to everyone, even those who don't deserve it and I just want, for once, to have someone take that love and hold it dear to them. To feel the same way I do, I don't want to fall in love quickly and surely.... I want it to take time and to be mutual.
Back then, Beauty and the Beast was written when looks was more important than the self- marriage was going to be loveless because people didn't last that long and cared more about their gender duty than their feelings or emotions. If Gaston, Belle, and the Beast where characters put into a story today- and not just based on some folk tale- it would have to deal with angst but one thing that would not be left out is that instant attraction at first glance. The first glance that is mentioned in Twighlight, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, etc where the main characters just know in an instance that the person that they are looking at is going to be a great love in their lives.
This instant attraction is what make people in present time so ready to throw the word love around. They equate that feeling of attraction with "love at first glance" without realizing that everything takes work, relationship and time. I don't get how I'm so skewed with my view on love when most people are so willing to fall in and out of love so quickly and to rush into marriage after less than a year of dating. Age has nothing to do with it, people stay serious monogamers at all ages- it takes the smart and educated people (ie, romantics who realize that love takes work to thrive, not just the cohesiveness that most people believe in) to stay together to make love and (maybe) a marriage work.
A lesson that I take away from Beauty and the Beast is that love is gradual and happens when you know the heart of a person first before weighting the physical attraction. This means that a person can love another, even if they are beautiful and the other is ugly or if the other is ugly and they are beautiful or any variation. As long as they know that this person is someone that they have allowed into their hearts, who has allowed them into theirs and know that this is the person that they want to share love and a life with.
(Although I am a cynical, I do see myself as a romantic)
I've done a lot of stupid things in my life without carefully thinking about it. I could be described as being a person without planning, why can't I be cautious in this one aspect of my life. An important aspect that counts and will count. I fall with my heart first and with my brain last, I just want to know what I am getting myself into.
grr....
When I was younger, the story line was too complex for me to understand it's underlying tones. All I saw was a girl who had man falling over her because she was the most beautiful despite the fact that she was the odd one. (yeah, even at a young age I had issues with the way I look)
Now that I am older, I see the story as glorifying gender and sex roles for those who are young. I'm beginning to realize why I am so cynical at the concept of love, for the simple fact that it gets thrown around a lot- in movies, television, books, school, jobs, etc.
The way I see it, if I'm going to fall in love- even if it's just once or a billion times- why I can't I do it carefully and with consideration. I don't want to fall in love with a fool because he perceives to have the qualities that I think I am looking for. I want to fall in love because this person definitely has the qualities that I am looking for and even if we don't get married, I want to know that in that moment of time my heart and mind worked in conjunction of each other. I have a habit of giving love to everyone, even those who don't deserve it and I just want, for once, to have someone take that love and hold it dear to them. To feel the same way I do, I don't want to fall in love quickly and surely.... I want it to take time and to be mutual.
Back then, Beauty and the Beast was written when looks was more important than the self- marriage was going to be loveless because people didn't last that long and cared more about their gender duty than their feelings or emotions. If Gaston, Belle, and the Beast where characters put into a story today- and not just based on some folk tale- it would have to deal with angst but one thing that would not be left out is that instant attraction at first glance. The first glance that is mentioned in Twighlight, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, etc where the main characters just know in an instance that the person that they are looking at is going to be a great love in their lives.
This instant attraction is what make people in present time so ready to throw the word love around. They equate that feeling of attraction with "love at first glance" without realizing that everything takes work, relationship and time. I don't get how I'm so skewed with my view on love when most people are so willing to fall in and out of love so quickly and to rush into marriage after less than a year of dating. Age has nothing to do with it, people stay serious monogamers at all ages- it takes the smart and educated people (ie, romantics who realize that love takes work to thrive, not just the cohesiveness that most people believe in) to stay together to make love and (maybe) a marriage work.
A lesson that I take away from Beauty and the Beast is that love is gradual and happens when you know the heart of a person first before weighting the physical attraction. This means that a person can love another, even if they are beautiful and the other is ugly or if the other is ugly and they are beautiful or any variation. As long as they know that this person is someone that they have allowed into their hearts, who has allowed them into theirs and know that this is the person that they want to share love and a life with.
(Although I am a cynical, I do see myself as a romantic)
I've done a lot of stupid things in my life without carefully thinking about it. I could be described as being a person without planning, why can't I be cautious in this one aspect of my life. An important aspect that counts and will count. I fall with my heart first and with my brain last, I just want to know what I am getting myself into.
grr....
Media's Effect On Girls: Body Image And Gender Identity | MediaWise.org
Media's Effect On Girls: Body Image And Gender Identity | MediaWise.org
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
A couple things
Things that have been bothering me lately, eff you if you think this is complaining- it's my blog, Nachoes!!:
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Rant: I have nothing against lesbian relationships, I am a gay ally and friend or whatever means "i support gay/lesbian/etc marriages, relationships, and such as." The only thing that I have a problem with is how television shows are more comfortable with showing lesbian relations and when they do, its either a sweeps draw in or a sexual device. Like tv needs women to be more sexual.
For example, Heroes and their lesbian kiss, am I supposed to be more impressed because the other girl is less conventional looking than most girls her age on tv? Grr......
http://www.hulu.com/watch/101544/heroes-claires-kiss-extended-version#s-p1-st-i1
Halloween is coming up!!!! (Should I get a costume?!)
Is it wrong that I would head-butt a child, over the age of 5, if she or he bit me?
I....need....to....clean....my.....
ROOM!
ROOM!
My homework is going to take over my life, oh well atleast I'll be stressed over things that I love!
How does one stop being a jealous person? Cuz I am and I hate it. :-(
and last but not least:
I need to start liking cooking (or else I'm going to starve)!!
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Rant: I have nothing against lesbian relationships, I am a gay ally and friend or whatever means "i support gay/lesbian/etc marriages, relationships, and such as." The only thing that I have a problem with is how television shows are more comfortable with showing lesbian relations and when they do, its either a sweeps draw in or a sexual device. Like tv needs women to be more sexual.
For example, Heroes and their lesbian kiss, am I supposed to be more impressed because the other girl is less conventional looking than most girls her age on tv? Grr......
http://www.hulu.com/watch/101544/heroes-claires-kiss-extended-version#s-p1-st-i1
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Oooh Oooh!
I took a quiz on the Oprah Show website, it said that I am an artist (ie free spirit/thinker/etc)!
Duh!
I already knew that Oprah, that's what makes it so hard for me to figure out what career path I want to take after graduation....
then again, I never really knew what I wanted to do and I don't think I would want to settle on something easy! Seriously, I have never known what I wanted to do when I grew up- my career path changed with every move I made in life. (Although a part of me still wants to help women deliver babies or work in adoption field)
All I know is that I would rather make a difference, than make a buck!
Although I don't want to be poor, tried that once: it didn't work!
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Reference to NieNie Blog:
I heard about "NieNie" on the Oprah website, she is a mom and a blogger who survived a terrible plane crash that left her (and her husband) with burns that covers most of her body (her husband, however, did not have as many burns). NieNie did not let that stop her from being a mother to her four children, blogging, and living a remarkable life. Her blog still shows how upbeat she is about life and being alive!
Just a small reminder that sometimes, somewhere a person can show you how to march on- even in the worst of times. She is truly a brave spirit.
(Although a little bit too conservative for my taste but hey, I don't judge!)
Duh!
I already knew that Oprah, that's what makes it so hard for me to figure out what career path I want to take after graduation....
then again, I never really knew what I wanted to do and I don't think I would want to settle on something easy! Seriously, I have never known what I wanted to do when I grew up- my career path changed with every move I made in life. (Although a part of me still wants to help women deliver babies or work in adoption field)
All I know is that I would rather make a difference, than make a buck!
Although I don't want to be poor, tried that once: it didn't work!
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Reference to NieNie Blog:
I heard about "NieNie" on the Oprah website, she is a mom and a blogger who survived a terrible plane crash that left her (and her husband) with burns that covers most of her body (her husband, however, did not have as many burns). NieNie did not let that stop her from being a mother to her four children, blogging, and living a remarkable life. Her blog still shows how upbeat she is about life and being alive!
Just a small reminder that sometimes, somewhere a person can show you how to march on- even in the worst of times. She is truly a brave spirit.
(Although a little bit too conservative for my taste but hey, I don't judge!)
Sunday, October 11, 2009
The one thing:
Before college, I used to write these short stories about things that upset me and uplifted me throughout my days.
I never told anyone about them and I don't have any of them left, seeing how my room was entirely cleaned out when I left home for college. (....and my mom wonders why I don't feel like her house is my home)
I miss writing but I never have the motivation or time to do anything like it. School sucks a lot of that want and motivation out of me, the constant barrage of papers does get tiring.
I think, I'm going to do that more, instead of just writing blogs.
Where to start?
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