" When life knocks you down, its up to you to get back up." ShoDre to Mr. Han
I have had a rough to great three days. I wish I could say that I wallowed in self pity but the truth of the matter is that I can not take anymore sadness in my life. Correction: I can not take being sad anymore, especially when you get the feeling that the person you feel bad about isn't feeling the same way. (Do I sound bitter?) On Saturday, I got into my car and started to take a drive. I really just wanted to hit the highway then stop when I had to pee. Plans changed, however, when I actually started driving and realized that I probably wouldn't be able to get home if I drove too far; with or without my GPS. So I ended up going to my city's downtown and hit the mall for a smoothie, a snack and a movie. Thankfully, I had a free movie ticket and did not have to spend any money except on the small tea I got to keep me warm. The movie, as you can probably guess, was The Karate Kid starring Jayden Smith and Jackie Chan. It hit the spot in my heart that makes me gaga over little American children in different countries fighting adversity, finding father figures and falling in love. It was so bitterly family fun and heart wrenching that I found myself wanting to vomit hearts and rainbows in a spew of candy canes and gum drops. More importantly, the quote listed above has become my new mantra for the times when all I want to do is fall into a bit of dispair.
HOOOOORAH! A film that is actually good.
On Sunday, my best-friend and I went to the beach and stayed there for the most part of all day. It was nice to be in the company of someone who can make me forget my troubles and remind me that there are more important things in this world, such as hot guy and hot dads with less than sub-par wives. (My baaaad). Oh yeah, we were totally site-seeing the tourist hotness of the male variety and we were not disappointed, from old to middle aged- to young to "avert my gaze that kid is probably 16" there was hotness on every corner. I could have cried at its beauty.
Then night came and another one of our friends showed up! The one I was hanging out with ended up going home while me and this friend ended up back at my place for alcohol and "Kick Ass." What this means is that I got a little drunk and ended up passing out around 1am.
Luckily I got it work on time.
:-)
How was your weekend? !
Monday, June 28, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
A Purge for sure
On a world-wide scale of terrible things that could have happen to me in the last week, i.e.: Flash Flood, FGM, starvation, the lost of a family member to HIV/AIDS, homelessness, my U-Haul tipping over, the death of a child, etc, my problems are not considered to be that bad. This point of view, however, does not stop the fact that I went through a lot of crap.
It just happens to be on the lower level of crap that the entire world goes through everyday.
Day 1: (starting Wednesday)
A puppy died thirteen hours after it entered my care, it was a sad death and I'm pretty sure I cried my eyes out. Did I mention that I only had 1 hour of sleep that night? This aspect of the ordeal made work very difficult to bare and I was described as "one of the walking dead" by a co-worker the next day.
Day 2: (starting Thursday)
My place has fleas, I like to think that it was unrelated to the puppy seeing how its been hot, humid and a perfect breeding ground for fleas. My roommate is greatly allergic to these fleas and develops huge pustules at their flea bites. Her mother blames me and is starting to talk shit, its getting unbearable and I might have to ban her from my apartment.
I also got into a fight with a very good friend of mine. I said some hurtful things to that friend, in order to let off some steam due to sleeplessness. I also misunderstood text messages during a text fight, which I hate doing. I told that friend that I could no longer be a friend to that person, for one reason or another. That ended the friendship, hopefully temporary. It's something I'm praying for.
Day 3: (starting Sunday)
My tooth fractured, a tooth that became brittle from a root canal I had 12 years ago. It is now falling apart.
Like I said, my life is not shitty on the scheme of the world BUT it still spews stress.
Bah Hum Bug.
It just happens to be on the lower level of crap that the entire world goes through everyday.
Day 1: (starting Wednesday)
A puppy died thirteen hours after it entered my care, it was a sad death and I'm pretty sure I cried my eyes out. Did I mention that I only had 1 hour of sleep that night? This aspect of the ordeal made work very difficult to bare and I was described as "one of the walking dead" by a co-worker the next day.
Day 2: (starting Thursday)
My place has fleas, I like to think that it was unrelated to the puppy seeing how its been hot, humid and a perfect breeding ground for fleas. My roommate is greatly allergic to these fleas and develops huge pustules at their flea bites. Her mother blames me and is starting to talk shit, its getting unbearable and I might have to ban her from my apartment.
I also got into a fight with a very good friend of mine. I said some hurtful things to that friend, in order to let off some steam due to sleeplessness. I also misunderstood text messages during a text fight, which I hate doing. I told that friend that I could no longer be a friend to that person, for one reason or another. That ended the friendship, hopefully temporary. It's something I'm praying for.
Day 3: (starting Sunday)
My tooth fractured, a tooth that became brittle from a root canal I had 12 years ago. It is now falling apart.
Like I said, my life is not shitty on the scheme of the world BUT it still spews stress.
Bah Hum Bug.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
poker face
the negative side of not making new friends:
not doing anything
not talking about my day
without human contact
the positive side of not making new friends:
not doing anything
not talking about my day
without human contact
win-win, for sure!
not doing anything
not talking about my day
without human contact
the positive side of not making new friends:
not doing anything
not talking about my day
without human contact
win-win, for sure!
Friday, May 21, 2010
america and guns
As I am watching the season finale of Grey's Anatomy, a terrible thought crossed my mind. In America, the land of freedom and opportunities, a person who is not a cop (american or not) can go to work one day and be shot by a crazed gunman.
Sure, it happens in a lot of other countries, however, this is the place where it happens the most.
It's a pretty scary thought.
It's a pretty scary thought.
Monday, May 17, 2010
a wish
i have a wish for my mom
that is impossible.
i have a wish for my mom
that will take her own motivation to grant.
i have a wish for my mom
for her wake up one morning
and not suffer from a disease.
i have a wish for my mom
that she will find happiness in my brother and i
by watching us grow into respectable adults.
i have a wish for my mom
that she will see the world outside of chips, cards, dealers
comps, bright lights, expensive buffets, &
the lost and gain of money.
i have a wish for my mom
that she'll be the selfless person,
those that love her know she can be.
i have a wish for my mom.
that is impossible.
i have a wish for my mom
that will take her own motivation to grant.
i have a wish for my mom
for her wake up one morning
and not suffer from a disease.
i have a wish for my mom
that she will find happiness in my brother and i
by watching us grow into respectable adults.
i have a wish for my mom
that she will see the world outside of chips, cards, dealers
comps, bright lights, expensive buffets, &
the lost and gain of money.
i have a wish for my mom
that she'll be the selfless person,
those that love her know she can be.
i have a wish for my mom.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Graduation: Not so Glamorous
It has been four days since I have graduated from college and I can not help but wonder where, in life, am I actually going. I mean, what am I going to do? They need to create a new word to describe the amount of "freaked" out and other emotions that I feel after accomplishing such a goal. Ideally, I would have chosen an undergrad degree that would have been lucrative that lead to a great job directly after graduation. The job prospect would have been made stronger from volunteering and internships I would have done in order to give my resume an exciting read. But I did not. (Actually, I did but I changed my major. I wonder how I should even feel about that.)
Anyways......
I am scared, alone and confused. I feel as if I need to start everything over, just find a way to wipe the educational slate. Then again, I still wouldn't change what I learned in college, I like the view that I have about the world because it makes me feel less like a sheep and more like a border collie trying to herd the sheep. :-) This sense of clarity and social righteousness, however, does not pay the bills. Okay, it does but not enough to live in a better neighborhood AND pay off the student loan debt.
So I am going to choose between teaching, nursing and ultrasound technology OR maybe all three, in order to do well for the world AND pay the bills.
Who knows, I am still young.
Anyways......
I am scared, alone and confused. I feel as if I need to start everything over, just find a way to wipe the educational slate. Then again, I still wouldn't change what I learned in college, I like the view that I have about the world because it makes me feel less like a sheep and more like a border collie trying to herd the sheep. :-) This sense of clarity and social righteousness, however, does not pay the bills. Okay, it does but not enough to live in a better neighborhood AND pay off the student loan debt.
So I am going to choose between teaching, nursing and ultrasound technology OR maybe all three, in order to do well for the world AND pay the bills.
Who knows, I am still young.
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