it's 2am on a school night and thoughts about the vast amount of trust issues i have accumilated throughout the years is keeping me up. Joy!
the trust issues i have stem from the many lies and betrayals that i have endured throughout the years.
i can say that these issues is 1 part stupidity (my part), 2 parts douche-baggery (their part). [or maybe that's just a statement that i hope is true!]
*because nothing is really my fault right? just the hand i have been dealt by the universe.
i feel as if i have to do an overhaul of my life around me: analyzing the people in my life, the choices i have made, the signs i have missed (i am a firm believer in allowing the universe to guide you) and the path my life is going to take if i don't stick to the changes i have been (constantly) trying to change.
my greatest vice is that i am a victim of believing that people only have goodness in their heart and deserve to be complimented, loved, helped, and fufilled.....
...... and it will continue to screw with my head until the day i die
because i refuse to change that aspect of my life.
o boy, my mind is as messy as my room.
*sarcasim, im not that delusional about life, gosh.
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