I have this issue with putting more emotion in a given a relationship than a person gives back to me. This isn't just with guys: friends and family too. I have a lot to give and I never do anything (that has to deal with emotion and helpfullness) half-assed. I learned a long time ago that I can't depend on people and have to rely on myself. It's just hurts when I look around and people have a support system of those who don't tell them that they are weak, whiney or stupid.
I know that being an adult means that a person should be able to help themselves, sadly, I'm not superman. I'm just not able to do everything myself. The lonely part is realizing that all those people that I help are not available to help me out. Like I've said, time and time again.... I do good things for the sake of doing good things, its just that in times of need: I would like to have someone looking out for me (not because it is their job or degree but because of the fact that they are people in my life who are there and want to help me).
I will admit that there are times in my life where I feel as if my problems are too out there to help or that I am too proud to accept help or, the worst part, is that no one besides me can help. :-9
Oh well.
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