Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog song: On the Rise

:-)

Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog is from Joss Whedon.
This duet is sang by Felicia Something and NPH!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOKm7mxGV6w

one is NOT the lonliness number

I get good grades in school, I'm passionate about life, I pay my rent and bills on time, I'm funny, smart and not unattractive. I am, however, single and I don't see that as a bad thing.

I am not trying to add another notch in the whole "single v relationship' argument- if there even is an argument- being single is not as bad as those relationship people make it out to be.

So you're not having sex.... big deal, you're not going to die.

So you don't have a bf/gf to cuddle with... you also don't have one to fight with.

So you're alone.... you're alone with yourself which allows you to know yourself better.

Getting to know myself is probably my favorite part of being single. I do not think I would have been able to make the emotional strives that I have if I was actually in a relationship. I have realized how strong I am without having an ultimate crutch. I have been hurt and manipulated but had the advantage of walking away without the sentimental attachment. Life hasn't always been too easy and I have had a number of flings along the way but nothing too detrimental that I could not just walk away from it with just an emotional bruise.

Maybe I will find that special guy one day, but whether its today, tomorrow, next month, next year or in 5 years: I know I'll be okay.

Failure.

As I take my umpteenth break on a paper that I am writing for a class that I know I will fail. I can't help think about how much I am like my mother when it comes to pride. I have made it no secret how mentally hard this semester has been for me, and if you haven't about it, one can tell through the somber tone that my blogs took throughout the semester. I was too prideful to ask for help until the last minute, and while most of my teachers have been responsive (I am receiving 3 out 4 Incompletes.) My other class, I know I will fail, my work has been blah and lacking. The final paper is going to be turned in late and yet.... out of fairness to my fellow students.....

I am still to prideful to ask for help.

Crap.

Seasons of Love

My 5th year of college is coming to a close. Its a constant reminder of how closer I am to adulthood.

....and how farther away from childhood I am getting.

I am thankful for the old and the new, when it comes to attitude, friendships and ways of thinking. I hope that I am going to continue these friendships and disposition when school starts back up (yeah, I have one more semester.) 

The cast of Rent (movie) 

i wish i wish

I wish i knew how to make school my life again. ;-) 

Trust Issues

Sometimes, when I allow it, my mind travels to a very dark place. This place where I allow my daydreams turn into daymares. A place of make-believe where those who I care about the most have betrayed me in some way. 

Maybe that's why I fail to trust people the way I would like to

because I have these fantasies where I am hurt and betrayed with no idea how to handle the situations. 

Erg. I hate drunk ramblings. 

(Note: Hey AJ, this is the night I drank the wine. There were no secret drinking nights that I didn't tell you about. k? :P ) 

<3 This is one of the things that makes me happy!