V-day on a Single person's heart

V-Day 2010 is not what I thought it would be. It's just turned into a reminder that people should not be trusted the way that I think they do.

It's also a reminder that no matter how hard I try not to, I let people walk all over me in the spirit of me caring for them. This is a great set-back because I thought I changed that and that I wouldn't let people do that to me again.

Ugh. How do you allow someone to know that through my hard exterior there lies a squishy underneath, endanger of being heart?

How do let that same someone realize that you are smart and intuitive thus smart enough to know when said person is taking advantage of the fact that you are a loyal yet pushed-over friend? 

I guess it stems from the fact that no matter the situation, I try to have a positive outlook on things and still believe that people are good in nature. It does not matter the bad parts of people I see everyday, I love them unconditionally.

I often wonder why I look forward to this day, more than I do Christmas or Thanksgiving and I am reminded in bits and pieces when I crying moods such as this one; it reminds me that people do feel good and love in their hearts on occasion. People tend to be a bit more creative on this day, then on Christmas and Thanksgiving, all in the name of the love. <3 

I may be in a part of my journey of self-discovery where I am apathetic to people, however, I try very hard to counter that with being positive. I know that statement probably didn't make sense but it did to me. 

I would like to state in a moment of Happiness everyday, however, I have draw backs that are caused by ignorant and thoughtless people that lead me into bouts of Sadness. 

Off topic: In other news, in my mom's extended family there has been a death and a birth, isn't that an awesome example of the circle of life?