last year

At the same time, last year, I hated myself and the life that I led. All my mistakes and bad decisions seemed to have drowned me in sorrow. I don't know if you knew it from looking at me but I felt so lost, so alone and so vulnerable. I was an empty shell with a disconnected soul, moving through life with no joy or motivation. The part that I hated the most was the fact that I didn't feel that anything was wrong in my life.

On the contrary, I felt so blessed. My friends and family are strange people but I love them so and they love me. I was healthy, provided for, and smart... all the making for a happy and well-adjusted person.

It was the past, however, that kept me from enjoying life. The path that I chose was damaging and unconventional but mine, none the less. Something that I needed to heal from, to learn from the mistakes of mine and the damages that was placed upon me.

I was so sad last year. 

It's funny what a year does to a person.

I would love to call myself a different person but its not true, I'm the same Liz. Just happier and healthier, still evolving into someone better, prouder and wiser.Still healing and seeking help.

The difference is that I enjoy every minute of everyday now.

This is not to say that I never get sad or angry or discouraged. I wouldn't want to talk too soon.

I'm just not drowning  in the deep sorrow I put myself in, anymore.
I don't hate myself, either.

I've accepted "the things I cannot change," have " the courage to change the things I can " and "the wisdom to know the difference."  

Was this blog lame?

(Should I go teach in South Korea? Questions,Questions)