HappyHappyJoyJoy

Despite what this blog may show, I am actually quite in a happy place.

I'm not saying that this is the happiest that I have ever been or that I am waiting for something to happen that will make me unhappy. But I am in a content place in my life where I would like for things to stay the same.

I feel strong enough to handle things but not at a place yet where I could handle the disastrous.

This is normally the part in my life where things go wrong, usually means that I will lose people in my life in the sense that they will not be there, not for me but just distant.

I hate when friends become distant and I wish that was okay.

[end of the emo part]

I had a dream last night, where my sugar glider Meiko was still alive but my family appeared as they currently are. She kept getting away from me, first she hid in the oven and I had to get her out of there in time before she was cooked [that imagery is in part to a graphic fml about a rabbit]. Then I went to open the door and a big gust of wind picked her up and she started to glide away from me. She would make these swoops at me and I couldn't catch her because it was too high, it took my brother to catch her.

Then I woke up.

The dream bothered me so much at 5am, that I couldn't sleep until 7am because it jolted me so much. I couldn't help but wonder what the dream meant.

What I hope it didn't mean was that a friend that I have already lost is going to slip away, no matter how much I like to think that I have him/her again. If that's true, I hope that means that it would be someone I used to care about and not someone I currently care about.

Because that would suck.