"...with all this pain in my chest, I still wish you the best with a f**k you...."

Cee Lo Green: "Fuck You" hits the spot.

I would post the youtube video but all that cutting and pasting hurts my head.

In other news, I'm reverting to my old ways. Sort of. I don't know. I'm all conflicted, I don't know if I want a boyfriend or other things. I have never really had a boyfriend for a substantial amount of time, only lovers for the past six years. I do not regret anything I have ever done with my life, its just that this constant marry-go-round of men in my life has left me with a sense of confusion and feeling of suspicion towards all men that have an attraction towards me. This suspicion leaves me to not expect much from men. :-)

My Cousin (Ate') Cris is the best...

Me: "A couple of weeks ago I had a false positive pregnancy test. I started panicking because I would have been 4 and a half months pregnant.  I was freaking out but then I took another 2 and they came out negative."
Her: "It's okay if you were pregnant, you and the baby could have lived here in my house. I would have taken care of you both. "

I'm back

Here I am, stuck at that place.

 The same place I was before that fateful Friday night when he sent me text messages and called my best friend, confessing that he still has/had feelings for me.

You know, that place where I *think* I can let go.

Where everything will be back to normal.

As.long.as.hes.not.there.